Nothing in life worth having is ever easy...

It's amazing how quickly life changes. It goes from amazing to just horrible. But somewhere inside yourself you pick yourself back up. I didn't think it was possible. But I have found that I need to follow my heart and listen to my mind. I have a wonderful life. Sure there are a few things missing, but I'm still young I have plenty of time to fill all those empty spaces. For now, I'm going to concentrate on my education and having fun and being happy. I can wake up with a smile on my face everyday and I love that. You truly do not realize how precious life is until things happen in life that make you think. No one said you were going to be handed an easy life. Life take works...in all aspects. You find who your true friends are. You find you rely on your family more and more. You just learn to love life more and more. You only get one of them! So you have to make the best of it! I think about that more and more everyday. I'm tired of the miserable feelings. I deserve to be happy. I try to be a good person. I try to help people around me. I try to be a good friend. We all make mistakes, we're human! I have made plenty of mistakes. But it's how you learn. Today for some reason I woke up after working a 12 hour shift last night and just smiled. I havent done that in a while. I have such an amazing life. My family has been absolutely amazing! They have always been there for me when I needed them. I love them with my entire heart. I still havent found the one yet. Though I thought I had... i guess its better off it wasnt meant to be. Everything happens for a reason. So I'm just waiting for that right person to come into my life and sweep me off my feet and fall head over heels in love! But I can wait for that. Being happy and independent is the main focus! For now, it's all about me! haha. But mainly because I believe I deserve it. My life hasn't been the easiest. I've lost family...given up a lot...taken some hard hits. But I believe it was all for a reason and it didn't kill me... so I think it made me stronger! I hate having enemies. I don't care if people think I'm horrible. I've tried in every aspect of my life to my best ability. Maybe not the best at some things...but no one is perfect. You do your best... and that's all you can do. So maybe people bad mouth me... and say im horrible. But I think they forget about the past... and how I helped them when they needed someone. But then I make some mistakes and I'm terrible. I'm just over all that. You only get one life. You're gonna make mistakes. Live and learn from your mistakes. Forgive and forget. I love the people who tell me im horrible... and later they realize in life that wow maybe i made that mistake... and come back and apologize. I just live my life the best way I know how. I make all kinds of mistakes. But I learn from them. More and more each day I learn more and more about how to live life. Lately its all about living life on the edge for me haha! I am a very caring person and I love talking to people and being there for them when they need someone. And if people don't want me in their life or im so horrible... that's something they have to live with. I dont like the idea of having enemies... but there are plenty of people in my life who love me and care about me for who I am and respect me for what I do for them! I love all the people in my life and I dont know what I'd do without them and their chats... they make life so much easier! I go visit my grandma at the nursing home...and when i go alone... it seems I get more out of those visits. I talk to her about life. It just makes me realize how precious life is. Think about all the good memories we had. Think about how I just don't want to lose the only grandma i've ever had in my life. But how I'm going to make the best attempt I can at seeing her. I just went tonight with my family and gave her a new spring picture of her grandkids! :) She loved it! Just gonna live life.... and be satisfied with the people in my life who care and love me! And hopefully someday God will send a man to steal my heart... but I'll wait til however long it takes... cuz I want a good one who will take real good care of me :) I have a lot of love to give! And right now that love is with my family and friends!!! Thank you all for being there for me in my life! You are amazing! I dont know what I'd do without your love and support!!


Katelyn Rae :)

Today we pray for one of the greatest people I know...

Today... someone I consider a very close friend went through her first round of chemo. It makes you realize exactly how precious life is and how much we all take it for granted. She is a great friend to me. She was there for me at a time in my life when I needed someone so much and she reached out to me more than anyone. She is one of the sweetest people I know. Today has been full of prayers for her... hoping that God lets her get through all this! I made her a bracelet that says... "kick chemo" and I made one for me. I wear it everyday! Thinkin and praying for you Crystal! Hope you get through this! You are one of the strongest people I know! I cant wait to see you! I'll be visiting soon! Love you girl! God will take good care of you... and as you told me... He'll take good care of you and me always :)

I also visited my grandma today. She has Lou Gehrig's disease. When I go to visit her I just think of all our memories. How she used to always be at my house. In gradeschool I would get off the bus and see her car and be soo happy cuz I knew Grandma was making dinner and she would give me a back scratch :) I'm trying to finish my cd so she can hear me sing. The one talent God gave me that I absolutely love! She has believed in me all along! I don't know what I'll do without her. I would always tell her things and she always kept them to herself. She knows about a piercing I have...that my mom doesnt know about haha. It's not bad... but I wasnt suppose to get anymore piercings. Oops!

Just makes you realize how precious life is. How grateful you should be for what God has given you! We are not promised tomorrow, so we must live for today!


Hang in there Crystal girl! You have tons of prayers your way! Love you!

Katelyn :)